why is it that i seem to fall for the guy that will never work out? why is it that i find someone so perfect and is exactly what i want in a guy and he is already taken? why is it that she is gorgeous, funny, and all around great person who seems perfect for him? why is it that i lost my chance at happiness and now have to see them together every day and be tortured by what i could have had but now lost? why is it that the person we are suppose to be with ends up with someone else?

life i know is unfair but you think with all the “unfairness” i’ve been dealt with the past years i would catch a break in the dating world..apparently i have to suffer a little while longer until i can truly be happy…people keep telling me if its meant to be it will work out…and i really hope it does..kind of like a lame movie where i am the girl he confides in but isnt dating but then at the end i get the guy..because to me he is like one of the guys from a movie…too good to be true but yet there he is… who knows what the future has in store…guess i will have to take things day by day and see what will happen

“you tend to go for the obvious instead of me”

so i randomly made this blog a couple months ago at a crazy hour of the night…and havent used it since…so iv decided that since i made this im gonna actuallly start using it..so life is whatever right now..just finished with finals so that means no school for a month thank goodness! but still got work so thats blah..holiday season is upon yes which i cant wait for but work+holiday shopping=disaster…not the most fun…ugh…all welll thats life…anyways iv been doing a lot of thinking as to how last year was/the beginning of this year and how much my lifes changed since then…drasicallly it has changed..new friends, lost friends…and then i keep going back to that one person i was crushing on/dating last mayish time…i keep having flash backs to all the fun times we had at the beach n driving down to malibu ha…and then i think..what would have happened if it would have worked out and where would we be today? still dating..who knows..its sad to think that my, i guess one could call it “commitment issues” to a relationship got in the way, but again thats life and i guess God was trying to tell me i wasnt ready for a relationship in my life right now…i do think sometimes if my Prince Charming is out there and if so what is he like? always lovely thoughts to be thinking before i go to bed every night lol…i have learned in this past year to let God lead my life…not me lead my life..just let Him lead because he knows where im going…well now that its winter break i hope to be making this a memorable winter break and hope to be bloggin’ hopefully once a day!!

b-light

seems to be an everyday sorta thing

If time was still
The sun would never never find us
We could light up
The sky tonight
I would see the world through your eyes
Leave it all behind

If it’s you and me forever
If it’s you and me right now
That’d be alright
Be alright
We’ll chase the stars and lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So won’t you fly with me

Oh yeah
Gonna fly with me now

Now the past
Can come alive
And give it meaning
And a reason
To give all I can
To believe once again

If it’s you and me forever
If it’s you and me right now
That’d be alright
Be alright
We’ll chase the stars and lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So won’t you fly with me

Maybe you were just afraid
Knowing you were miles away
From the place where you needed to be
And that’s right here with me

It’s you and me forever
You and me right now
That’d be alright
We’ll chase the stars and lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So won’t you fly with me

If it’s you and me forever
If it’s you and me right now
I’d be alright
Be alright
We’ll chase the stars and lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So won’t you fly
Fly
Fly with me

sometimes we can tend to disconnect ourselves from the world only to try and do whats better for ourselves..when in reality company is the only medicine…and when we feel alone are we truly alone?